7 of November 2010 Two different world

Today weather is nice. I am listening to 十年一刻 by 苏打绿 while I am writing my diary today. This is a nice song. I am thinking of the differences of my world with the world outside. The world outside full of 虚假 and other negative impressions. I am tired to stay at there. I like to stay at my world which is slower in progression and harmony. I can feel the peace in my heart and most importantly, I can live happily. I hate the world outside. I wouldnt be so stress and more .... ....

But i cant choose my life at this moment. I have to stay there and enjoy what happen there. I am willing to stay there for few years, to see the difference types of people. The more i see, the more i learn. But one days, i will come back to where i belong. I would like to have a simple life with a house, a car and most importantly, with a person who willing to live with me until the end of my life.

伤心的我！

今天，我，伤心。 我不明白为什么一个努力，聪明的人会‘携带’如此幼稚，不成熟的思想。可惜呀！ 你的作为全部人都知道， 你的自私， 你的自我， 你的虚伪， 我真的看不下去。 我忍， 希望你有改变的一天， 但是我想在我们分开的时候， 我还是失望的。 不要以为你的‘目的’在你精心掌控中， 不要当我们是无知的， 每个人心中都有一把尺， 希望你好好利用你的小聪明。 可能你发现了些许的改变， 可能你也试着改变， 希望你前途一片光明。 我忍因为我知道我们的相遇是短暂的。

加油凯！

每一天， 每个人， 写自己的故事。 有些故事是悲伤的， 一些是开心的。 未来就在眼前， 加油凯！

My mind!

This year my year end's holiday comes earlier than the other year. The duration of the holiday is nearly two months. This 'big' holiday gives me the time for me to think and to engage in introspection. I hope to start a new life and have a good preparation to welcome year 2010. In year 2009 i felt that i am not a 'good' guy although my life in 2009 was easy. I have some bad behaviors that i need to change it before 2010. It is a difficult task for me. I believe that 'thinking can change one's behavior and the knowledge is the key for changing one's thinking'. Moreover, my main concern for all the time is my study. I am too confident in my study all the times( proud). A lot of bad mind come to my brain when the thing is related to my study. In year 2010, i must reduce my skipped lecture to zero. Furthermore, english should also improved especially in speaking skill, writing skill for lab report, exam skill. In conclusion, in year 2010 i need to live according to my plan. I plan my life in year 2010 and my planning is still going on !!!

外婆

今早，收到到了噩耗。我的外婆过世了。我的心情从天堂掉到了谷底，内心深处在滴泪，脑子反复的思考着。

从我出生到刚满20岁的我，外婆总在我身边。您可是一本活得字典， 我总爱听您讲故事。您脸上的皱纹，告诉我您曾经经历过许多。这80多年，您经历过许多的分分合合，但您依然坚强的活下去。此外，在您身上我也学到了许多的做人的道理。

相信，我回到家乡的时候，一定会更怀念您。希望你安息，快快乐乐的永永的在天堂上。

您的外孙

凯上

一首诗！

把昨天的回忆送给你
今天的回忆我给你写
将来的回忆我你创造
就算剩下最后一滴血
都要拼死守住承诺
因为生命的短暂
所以要学会珍惜
表面上的光彩
不等于一切
事实是远不如所预测
把握现在的时光
请别让千万支剑插在我的心脏
血一滴一滴的滴下
我慢慢的死去
只剩下回忆
。。。 。。。

真的很开心！

今天真的很开心。因为在facebook 找到了我失去联络的小学同学。 2001年毕业至今已经 8 年了。 有些人我都忘记了因为改变太多了，还看到了小学 5， 6 年级的照片真的是宝贝呀！ 看着那照片让我回想到过去的一起。天呀， 我尽然开心到查每一个人的facebook 一直到凌晨五点。我真的疯了。